Fanny's blog

2012-01-29T17:30:00.004+08:00

Dabadum. January 21st. It was my dearest Mom's Bday

She told me before NOT to buy any cake. Bit of a confidence over there.. assuming that she'll got cakes from Banks.. well, can't blame her.
She usually got cakes sent from banks for her bday.
Usually, even those cakes were better than what i bought for her T.T

so.. not cake this year. I thought of a much better idea. a mug :)
Not simply a mug. a Magic Mug. One that looks like an ordinary black elegant mug at first, but, as it filled with hot water, the black color will fade and magicaly show..

like this

so why mug? Because my mom always starts her day with a cup of coffee. And so, I hope every morning she'll always remember that we love her <3
Why quiniest? haha.. cause she's a queen. A very quiniest one :p

and.. UNFORTUNATELY! She didn't got any bank sent her cakes.. LOL!
She got a pack of parcel from igor though. still.. no cakes..
Well she got one when we ate at TheVinnette.. a small delicious one.
Couple Chocolate cake! damn. Another food from heaven!

And my big sis is in town. back from oz.

so we can actually celebrate my mom's bday. What's so funny is that we had the dinner just yesterday. WHY?
Because mom and dad were quarelling. silly -.-'
childish

anyway and anyhow. I love Vinnette's dessert!!

one last post

Last week was also my Cheese Small Group 2nd bday. :)
we had fun having suki dinner at Oliv's house.
and of course we have the annual testimonial

1. NickName
2. What have change
3. What haven't change
4. Testi
5. Funny things that have been done

what they say about me.. haha..
NinjaBerbulu. Most of them gave me that nick.. LOL
What have change : I've been more mature :D My bad driving habbit
Haven't Change : sensitivity
Testi : lalalala haha most important- they saw me as a very hectic busy person :(
well, at least they mention even if im busy, i still can do all my task right :)

yeah we had a lot of fun :D :D

2012-01-14T00:14:00.002+08:00

I say.. grown up shouldn't get bad mood easily.
Meaning : Grown ups are capable to handle their own feeling

Think with brain.

Sometimes it's hard to since I'm a girl.
Tending to put heart matter first. Not wrong

But when things get like this.
got grumpy for no reason. that's when I should know.

Is it hormonal? might be...

Too damn much and so not appropriate to write here.

sigh. where's my trash now.

2011.to.2012

2011-12-31T23:48:00.002+08:00

2011 .to. 2012

So here I am.. at home in front of the computer. In my mom's room
The TV's on.. sitting on the massaging chair.. Dad's having his beer and peanuts..
with lil sis and mom watching Transformer.
A real strange way to end the year. Frankly, it's like my first time having this kind of year end celebration. haha.. I often end the year out of Surabaya..
But I guess, this year is different.. We just spend the day at home.. shopping round the city

Back to my very first intention updating the blog. Posting my #2011Memories and #2012Wishes

#2011Memories :
Jan
Celebrating Mom's Bday- NomNomJamooe
Feb
-In Memoriam : Monro :'( The cutest chubbiest greatest dog ever
-Worst Valentine ever..
March
can't remember a thing
April Great B'day.
-MidNight surprise :)
-A bucket of brocoli flower from besties and several surprises from them all day :D. #thankingGod I have them
-A gorgeous highheels from Cheese :D love it!
May
- Celebrating Dad's Bday - NomNomCityLites
-Quite a bad month
June
-ShabuShabuHouse! arranging such event is just fun!
-Bussying Myself
July
-Arranging Silvi's Masquarade Dinner : such a happy thing to do :D
August
- none.
September
October
- starting a super hectic schedulle until December - periode when I even had no time to eat. When I had to push myself upto my limit.
- starting IALF
- WeNotMe - WelcomeParty for the KSM IF newbies :D FirstTime being a pubdekdok and enjoyed it so damn much!
- Felinda's midnite surprise
November
-Twinsie's Bday :)
- Vivi&Dion's Marriage : A time when I related to CynthiaAstono as a family and VANESSA!
December

-Christmas Party with the girls
- Went to BawahJembatanTol Dupak

another memories : CheeseMemories-StayOverNight at Cha2's house.. Crazily Karaokeing :D

Hmm.. Overall memory : A super tiring year! haha.. well so fun though
My first year brokenhearted and a whole year of fun
A year when I learn a lot about myself
A year when I grow a lot :)
Thankyou 2011

2012 wishes
MatureMORE in Christ
Fixing bad relationship with anyone
MommyAndDaddy'sRomanticalStoryAlongTheYear
GreatMarks-AsAlways
Great Time in Australia
Meeting more fabulous friends in Australia
:)

2011-12-30T21:04:00.004+08:00

Life is beautiful :)
I'm Fanny and I'm fully satisfied with my life..
I'm glad I am Me.. There are several things that's not perfect in my life, but I'm happy with it
Lots of things that helped me grow.. mature more..
Lots of thigs used by God to mold me :D

This semester is going to end soon.. And see.. time really does fly.. It's like yesterday I was just finished my UNAS.. entering university..
and in 6 months I'll be leaving Indonesia..

And that's why I'm cutting off my hectic schedulle, I decided to stop teaching.. well, still got 2 kids here.. but I'll be fine :)
I'll try to take more rest, spend more time with friends, family, and hopefully helps people to grow more in Christ.. tralalala.. it's hapines!

Seems like I'm doing nothing.. yes I do.. Iddling today.. quite fun, I start finishing my last project.. Currently on 'Minggu Tenang' a week that should be used to finish projects and studying for the final exam, but well, since I were super busy on normal days, I used these 2 weeks to have a lots of fun with friends!

I even haven't had time to 'BANGKONG' everyday is fully schedulled :D out with friends.. from school, university, church, SG, besties, and KSM

Being busy that I like : creating and arranging events :)
Just before the peace week start, we start decorating :D
Creating a very simple christmas event at church where we had the photo corner area and swap christmas cards with others.. well, the aim is of course to make Elyouthers know more about others..

then a nice simple christmas party with the taciks and besties :)
we decorated GW's apartment nicely, and had this fun gift exchange..
a simple,cheap,and fun party :) tiring but of course super fun

then I went to batu, RAFTING with some elyouthers,having a culinary trip at Batu and Malang.. but, what's better than the rafting is the vacation it self..
The time spent playing board game BANG! and being inspired by theGirls :)

well, they talked A LOT about future husband.. a boyfriend criterias
haha.. I was being a good listener and learnt a lot from them.. at least I hope their conversation would help me with my lovelife someday :p

I do have my criteria and still wondering.
but i guess, right now isn't the right time to think about this kind of thing.. one project awaits. ILPC has been neglected and finalExam is coming

2011-12-11T22:39:00.004+08:00

Let's say Curcol..

I'm snapping a little time to share..
A pile of projects await me there..
Well.. I'm not here for grumbling.. In fact.. just sharing a little eye opening experience..

If ones ever watch the movie slum dog milionaire..
They probably understand the term 'slum', in indonesian we acknowledge it as KUMUH

So yesterday elsatyouth did a Christmas trip. We packed lots of presents for unfortunate kids so that they could also experience the joy of christmas.. even if just a little..
We managed to wrap more than 400 bags completed with school's equipment and milks... :)
Thanks for everyone who participated.. bags.. money.. stationary..

And good job for those who helped packing up.. 400 bags
We worked like a factory ^^
since Friday from 17.00-23.30
and Saturday 9.00-12.00
:D

\

but of course all the tiredness all paid. :)

The trip destination was to a slum under the DupakFreeWay bridge..
in short - Bawah Jembatan Tol Dupak
It's a realy dirty area.. stinky and full of trash..
I don't even know how can people live there..

So this area is appart from our Surabaya's land.. literally.. so that if you want to reach this place, you'll have to ride a 'getek' a small raft that attached to a rope tied crossing a river.. i don't know if there's a term for 'kali' in english.. bassically.. a super dirty,full of shit, garbage dump, waste water river..so you know it's stinky and black.. a man needs to pull the raft creeping the rope..

and on the other side.. another shocking place appear.. a living place.. community.. neighborhood.. under a bridge... people even have to bent down to enter the place.. let me say.. a tunnel.. and they use partition to part one's area to others.. so small.. so dirty.. so in human..
No bathroom.. well, they refer a bathroom to this part of the place right in the river bank.. where they can shit just right into the river.. take a bath there.. i saw people sleeping with cats..
this one is getek

2shots only.. this is under the bridge.. see lots of garbage there?

hmm.. well.. I guess there are lots of unfortunate people out there.. but what's so mesmerizing about them is that they have the spirit!
They still sing the song

"Haleluya Ku memujiMu Tuhan
Karena KasihMu tak berkesudahan..
Biar yang bernafas memuji Sang Raja
Di atas gunung dan di dalam samudra

Tanganku kuangkat padamu..
Mensyukuri rahmat yang KauBri..
Kakiku melompat bagiMu..
Sbab rahmatMu baru stiap pagi..

Bersyukurlah kepada Tuhan..
Sebab Ia Baik...
Sebab Ia Baik...
BahwasaNya untuk slamanya

Kasih setiaNya..."

I've got the video actually.. I'll post it up later :)

2011-11-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

C.A.P.E.K

that's it. This tiredness has been up to the point where I REALLY have no time to sleep. It's been 2 weeks I have only 3 hours sleep..

I even slept in front of the computer.. waking up every 2 hours continuing these assignments and projects. Crazy.

This shouldn't be this hard.. I know..

and how come it got me this bad? Problem relies on my team...
4 out of 5 of my projects are all group assignments.. and UNFORTUNATELY
they don't really care. It's suppose to be done by 3 students.. but me, here.. im a single fighter.

And that really drives me insane. I've been complaining to them but they just won't CARE!
Previous semesters.. same things happened.. but you see, there were only 2 projects.. and it's 5 now.. hais

And it burdens me more.. knowing that last semesters hardwork of mine caused trouble for those two fellas.. yes. they didn't understand lots of things...

They even said that they wanted to move.. Bullshit I say..
Those weeps should be said last semesters... They should have known how stressed I was last semster.. Felt all stupid.. all wrong... spent LOADS of my sleeping time studying. WHEREAS THEY..? didn't even bother..

I didn't mind of course before.. But now.. really, I had other things to do than taking care of others mark. My Life.. I miss my SmallGroup.. I miss my besties.. I miss my sleep.

truthfully.. I'm the kind of girl who hates those who won't respect teachers.. especially them who teach wholeheartedly.. Well, I teach too.. and you know that feeling when you are being ignored?
hurt so much... when a teacher try their best.. you should appreciate it. Don't go facebooking and read comics, even watch runningman when they teach. that's insulting.

2011-11-13T01:40:00.003+08:00

JUST A TWINSIE BDAY... well.. we've been so busy now that we start giving surprise in the middle of the night.. haha..

2011-11-13T01:03:00.006+08:00

Vivi & Dion Prewedding Video from ewpictures on Vimeo.

11.11.11
Happy Wedding Day Vivi & Dion.. Yes she's one of my prettiest cousins.. haha.. ah.. well Vivi and all of her sisters all are pretty <3

and Happy Sister Day Me and Cynthia Astono

haha.. Yes, so like the old adage say, the world is a small place...
or maybe, Surabaya is a small city..

It's really is interesting when I suddenly become a relative with one of my best friend..
:) so she's the cousin of the new couple.. Dion and Vivi's cousin... that'll made me and cyn a cousin cousin.. haha.. well... I wish I can relate to all of my friends.. felinda? twins? eve? fenny? haha.. all others!

and there's a pict of my family.. and then a pict of me and Cyn's cousins.. Michael who i think will be my lil sis's classmates in IBM.. those 2 lil girls at the front are monsters! haha.. Cyn, the one with orange dress.. my lil sis and daniel, haha.. it's fun to have cousins that are similar to me.. I mean.. yeah.. Cynthia.. and her cousins.. dan who's also a 92 and he's a UKP student.. at least the talking can go and yeah.. fun!

more over.. At yesterday wedding day which took place at Shangrila I just discovered that VANESSA.. yes that little Vanessa my youngest student.. is A RELATIVE of MINE..
cpcpcp..

2011-10-28T15:38:00.002+08:00

Seems like haven't post this one up.

A very late bday present from my best friends :D

A cookbook..

2011-10-28T15:26:00.002+08:00

It's another me with my own thought.

I.. don't like it when people judge me.

and I guess that kind of principle applied to anyone. everybody.

What's considered as judging?

When you act like you know me..
When in fact I don't know you.
Trust me, me myself don't even understand me.

2011-10-27T02:38:00.004+08:00

ANOTHER ONE

END OF OCTOBER IS A BDAY MARATHON

and all of them were ones of my closest friends :)
Felinda.Cha2.Esther

maybe that's why God let me cried excessively before.. so that I got a better mood in celebrating their bdays :D

Who wouldn't like to make their best friend happy? :)

The midnite visit before v2's bday ends

and this one a visit for the home-Alone bday girl

Planning to share more.. if projects have all been finished. :p

ah and one last thing. Eliz had finally coupled.. haha.. happy for her..
well that of course made me thinks a lot.

ra ra oh ra ra

2011-10-27T01:34:00.002+08:00

MIDNIGHT BLAB

last Updated... September 4th.. ehem.. Oh well..
Many things happened for sure..
Lots of things to learn especially on not being to greedy

err.. but to use the term 'greedy'.. I think that's just over the top..

But mainly is that I need to learn to refuse.. learn to know my limit.. learn to enjoy life..
Hectic days past quickly.. Lots of things to be done.. 24 hours tough.. I won't say I don't have enough time.. 24 is enough. It's just then comes back to me, how I manage it...

People said for College Students life we'll need to choose between good grades, social life, and enough sleep...

For me.. I'll add some more points..maintaining a good relationship with God, ministry, working, and good relationship with the family.

If it is drawn.. it'll be a hexagonal.. and keeping it balance.. it's sure is hard.
Well, on my first and second semester... I survived.... hmm.. with a friend supports, and that friend is not to be disturbed for now...
Somehow I have to survive this one too.. plus the IALF class that should be taken 3nights a week.. *pressure pressure*

I swear next year I won't do anything. I'd just spend lots of my time with friends.. focusing on discipling.. and family. No more teaching. No more events.. ILPC 2012 is gonna be my last.
Starting January.. I'll let go Graciella, Bev, Jordan and Vanessa.
Sad? yeah.. well, I do enjoy teaching.. I do enjoy being active.. but when they're all overloading. I'm zombied.

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I do have lots of things on my head.. things I've been keeping there.. and let it wanders there..
Let me try..

Things I mainly hate about myself : Crybaby.
haha.. Never knew why, but I'm the kind of girl who cries easily.. especially when I'm quite overloaded. hmm.. since I was a kid.. I often cried when my parents scolded me..
I cried watching sad films. I cried when I'm mad.. I cried when I got bad marks..

contradiction I guess.. with the image I built since elementary.. haha.. most people might see me as a strong girl.. highly independent.. mature.. and brave..
haha.. well, I thought I was too!

But for some cases.. I'm such a crybaby.. hmm.. ever know that old adequate about women tears?
They said that sometimes women cry for no reason.
Yes.. as I grow.. I kind of understand.. maybe not for a particular reason, but when I got so tired and one things pissed me off.. I wouldn't be able to stop my tears.

haha.. recently that happened again. I felt sorry for the one that triggered my tears.. but I should be thankful to him..
Helped me relieved my stress for the whole month.. Frankly speaking, I weren't able to laugh freely.. and happily since October started.. tight schedule.. lots of assignments.. the beginning of IALF class.. yet still teaching and doing all things.. racing against time like everyday.. so yes, it might just exploded that day.
Cried all day.. And out of control.. you know, when you cry till you get hiccup.. till you get severe headache and your eyes were all poignant-puffy...

what so stupid is that I don't really know why I cried. I kept pondering and asking questions.. hahah.. well my sister dealed with me. Cheered me up..

ah! but I then found great article about tears..
http://niahidayati.net/arti-menangis-dan-manfaat-air-mata.html

so tears are so beneficial. It helps reduce stress and let out the toxic from the body.
And why do they made your eyes sore? because an emotional tears has 24% more concentrate than regular tears. haha! FunFact...
Oh yes.. and why do we got that super headache? That's because of dehidration.. and that's quite accute.. We'll need to restore quickly.

haha.. amazing tears.
But really.. It helps reducing stress

so.. if you want to cry. Cry.
just make sure people don't see you :D

2011-09-04T20:55:00.018+08:00

another holiday.

but this one is a bad one. I didn't go anywhere.. eventhough mom and dad are free from their work. reason :

my grandpa died. . . my dad's dad.
they said 'tak kenal maka tak sayang'
I do feel bad for his dead, but mainly it's because my dad's agony...
I rarely see my dad cries.. and when he's sad of course I feel sad too..
and by feeling sad because only of that, makes me feel worse.. feels like i'm a 'MalinKundang'
but how can i help it..
I don't know if it's natural for grandchildren nowadays not having a deep relationship with their grandparents.. or it's just me :(
Kinda feel guilty...

So I spent a week at AdiJasa.. which was quite ridiculous.. people usually just need 3-5 days.. and we spent 8 days there.. wasting money.. food.. time.. only to satisfy my grandma wish.hmm.. I do think grief house bring bad effect to me.. lately I've been quite in a bad mood :(
I don't know why... huufh

well this morning we had my grandpa's coffin cremated.. it's my first time going to a crematorium.. and they didn't actually burn the coffin with fire. they use electricity.. well new experienced i must say. And tomorrow we'll go to the sea.. spreading what's left of my grandpa at the sea..

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--start of a good post

Every midnight, back from AdiJasa I always spent 2 hours watching this film

CityHunter.. One good Korean series :D
Handsome dapper man- LeeMinHo.. <3
It's an action-romance drama..
hahah... I know romance films bring bad effects to me :p
that feeling of carving a boyfriend :P LOL
but seriously.. every man should learn how to treat a woman YoonSeong ways.. hahha

another good news.. I still got a week holiday :) which is quite good compared to UKP's students who'll end their holiday today :D

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a random thought : this is my last year here in Indonesia :'(
mixed emotions.

miss my friends :(

2011-08-12T20:04:00.009+08:00

My name is Fanny
and I have a family. I'll keep it nice and sound.
:)
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Well I'm not going to stress over everything.
I'll just do what I can. . Just hope it'll all get better eventually..
and meantime while I've just got 2 days left for my short holiday -it is short, compared to UKP's or Ciputra's.. -
I reread JK's Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows.. and continuing to expand my vocabularies..

Usually when I was doing my activities.. Random things often comes up to me.. And I always tried to remember it for later purpose of posting in this blog. But when I'm sitting neatly here in front of DORY-myLaptop... I always forgot.. sigh. I know i know i know. this sms-short memory syndrome- is suck

Hmm.. I guess I'll just post up some picts of my lil sis party.. which we together organized :)
It went well
Masquerade Dinner :D

yeah, basically we've got masks.. themed cupcakes..chocolate fountain... jazz music.. singers.. and of course food :)

it's simple.. relax.. and yes.. comfy
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AND ADDING LITTLE HAPPINES ^^

One of my besties is lovebirding! :D hahah
it's cute!
when's my time? after OZ? probably :)

2011-08-04T01:04:00.002+08:00

What does family means.
I remembered them saying that it means :
FAther Mother I Love You.

Does it means that the father and mother love each other ?
If they don't then...
what does Family means?

So what if only the children who try to hold them.
And if it brings agony for them, isn't it better if we're disappear?

2011-07-21T00:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HOLIDAY GIRL

what am i doing?
routine :
6 am - taking pedro for a morning walk
7 am - back to sleep till 9
9 am - acompanying mom.. eating and talking
10 am - cook for dad
10.30 am - accompanying dad eating
11 am - clean up
11.30 - . . . . . doing nothing untill 3.. until my sis got back from school
4.30 - teaching
5pm-1am always something to do

so, well.. i promised always to do something usefull each day in my holiday.. and i quite did..
my free time occurs between 11.30 - 15.00 usually I studied the bible.. doing IELTS exercises..
working out.. watching DVDs.. hahah
well it's suppose to be a great holiday.. :D
I planned to read twilligt.. or harPot next week.. improving english! 8D

and im thinking for a bussines..
I know. I'm a dreamer..
But.. seeing kids like me having their own bussines.. kind of challenged me..
I want one.. but what?

2011-07-14T10:14:00.003+08:00

Holiday..

ahaha... Bad habit when I stopped updating this blog. Loosing it's first function which is to improve my english. well now that it think about it, writing like this can't really improve my skill since I just write.. oh well nothing so.. educational? without advance vocab.. and bad grammar :|

well.. see after the peacefull week.. I had the test week which is SOO LONG! 2 weeks approx...
2 weeks.. only for 6 test -yes i've already got 1 test finished on my peacefullweek :p
So yes, 6 test.. 14 days.. meh.. and there were 2 tests together in a day.. meh..
so it was like my.. holiday test week.. I had fun for days.. then nervous for had not been studying then studied hard then had fun..
hahah.. unilife I guess.. so much different with HighSchool.. Or it might just me, others seem to have crowded schedulle..

Anyway.. I past all those weeks.. well... I just hope I got all great marks.. :(
really wish to.. extremely..

AND..
what am i doing this holiday.. which is quite suck since everyone is going to end their holiday while I just start it...
I'm doing this project.. EventOrganizing for my lil sis bday :D
it'll be a Masquerade Party! DANG!! ahaha.. It gotta be so much gorgeous.. we've got the masks.. we've got the dress we've got the things.. well not all... sooo.. here we are.. doing this fun little things...
by the way.. i'm still on the comittee for FEAT-which as an event at ubaya,gonna be held on GrandCity
anndd.. Facing Your Giants-a camp for youth!

well.. I usually turned on near the day.. i'm not quite sure what am i doing right now.. haha..
i'm not in the sie acara tough.. i think that's why.

I'm gonna make this holiday so damn usefull! :D
bye bye laziness! wake up early everyday! take pedro for a walk.. do at least 2 usefull things in a day! :)
Oh and Vanessa missed me already so yes, I've started teaching.. haha.. I won't have that time when I wouldn know what to do in a day. so that's great

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photograped and edited by Me :D
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The best way to kill something is to starve it to death..
whether if it's a beings.. or feelings.. or faith..
starve it and it'll dies...
For feelings for feeling it'll either grow or shrink..
If one's shrink.. then there are other's growing.
-nothingPersonal. just saying

same goes with faith.. how can u want to bear fruit if u don't feed ur faith?soul?
:)

2011-06-24T17:54:00.002+08:00

ThePeaceWeek a.k.a Minggu Tenang

I'm glad I have this Peace Week :)
Well.. yes, projects is annoying but don't stress too much. that's bad for your health..

I could have time to take care 'ShabuShabuHouse'
One nice event from elyouth.. welcoming the new junior :D

Yes.. so the date is on 28-29June.. which is in the same week as my Final Exam
x_x I was shocked at first.. knowing that I'll have test both on 28 and 30..
Yes, one bad habits of mine, making appointment without really checking on my schedulle..
since seniorHigh i've been so often pinched because of this problem. Time management :(

Well.. thanks God. . Ubaya moved my test which should be on 30 to.. yesterday *danceDance*
God always makes a way :)
So, what am i goin to do now?
Doing my best in this fun event.. and Final exam *danceDance*

It's gonna be so much FUN! lalalala

*praying for my abandoned project.
hahah.. tired of doing it.. i'm not complaining tough...
I just wish..it wasnt a group project..

not only praying.imgoingtodoitnow

I'm screwed

2011-06-03T02:28:00.004+08:00

My name is Fanny and i was able to do a lots of things..
but.. only back then

Screwed me for taking the IT major. why did I signed for this at the first time anyway?
I don't like coding. I don't like being a nerd. I need people arround me. I don't talk to machine.

whew. well.. I shouldnt grumble. Seems like there are others like me.. thinking they're taking the wrong major.. but apparently, I'm just being a crybaby. work harder fanny. do it well. can't do it? let it go.. ask.

every little step I took.. God should have planned it. I was pretty sure before it's what He want me to take. and now? haha..

I'm still gratefull tough.. :)

and there's an open recruitement for MOB Teknik 2012.. quite alluring..
but I've joined the FEAT comittee.. well.. I think I'll be able to do it..
It'll be great.. I'll be so much busy and of course then my mind won't wanders around..

:) Let's consider it.

anyway.. Graciella,Jordan,Beverly have all finished their exam :) hope all got great marks
Vanessa? sure she will :D

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Mom's at jakarta that makes me a mom for 3 day.
what to cook tomorow? haha.

-i'll be okay :)

2011-06-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

imusdm.

2011-05-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

haha.. being used to share..

2011-05-30T01:23:00.002+08:00

so yes. I decided to end it.
so let's try not to be a crybaby.
future awaits.. hard as it seems, but I'm fanny anyway :)

Meanwhile I'll just improve myself.
Being a better person. for real...

what bothers me is just that scripture from my bestfriend
Genesis 29 : 18-19
Somehow.. it was such a coincidence when she gave me the verses..
left me think. :|

2011-05-28T01:23:00.002+08:00

:'(

2011-05-23T00:24:00.002+08:00

I guess.. there are several things need to be considered in loving a person..

his God..
his attitude..
everyone acceptance..
possibility..
your feeling..
finance..

complicated as always

2011-05-14T20:03:00.002+08:00

Today sucks a lot. Nothing's right. All wrong. I don't know what's YOU're doing God.. playing with my life?
Really don't know what to say. I really need my friends. Shoulders to cry on. just not in the mood for hanging out when there are these so many things in head.

and not in the mood to share.

I guess, now the use of this blog is changing to my place to grumble.

All my fault all my bad. where are You, God?

2011-05-10T23:15:00.002+08:00

I know I have my God. A BIG God..
But still.. I worry a lot..

I hate being a cry baby.. but the fact is that I am..
trying to change it.. still..

so what am I worrying about?
I don't know.. a lot.. might only because of these hectic weeks...
always been chased by time. with that so tight schedulle.. plus my parents are off to Bandung.. I still need to take care of the shop for a while.
I need my break. Last week was a break. But my break really isn't a break if I got that much thing inside of my head.. huf.

What's on my head?

2011-04-17T18:00:00.002+08:00

ok. I'm active when I'm studying.
I can't help myself not to do other things when I'm studying.

see.. the problems with getting bored easily things

and.
just checked facebook.
cute couples I mean a -once i thought as- perfect couples ended their relationship
sad news. :(

and they are mainly doing this Long Distance. seems so hard

so.. ?

2011-04-17T17:41:00.002+08:00

HECTIC.
.. .. .. who am I to grumble? so I'd just skip all nonsense grumbling

Hello Mid Term

the author of this blog is currently in her mid term exam week.
And what she loves about mid term is.. no long hours class. no morning class.
What she hate about exam is mainly the same with others student.

Well.. I do hope I got great.. great.. great score.. probably straight A this semester?
can I? God's with me.. but He might have other plans..

ah.. this semester big fishes are... OOP and Database
not so sure.. my Object Oriented Programming won't be held using the computer. it'll be a written test.. nonsense --.--'' would you ever in real life code without compiler ???
and Database. . . need more exercise :D

Thank you for the cross, Lord.
Thank you for the price you paid.
Bearing all my sin and shame, in love you came
And gave Amazing Grace.

Thank you for this love, Lord.
Thank you for the nail-pierced hands.
Wash me in Your cleansing flow, now all I know...
Your forgivness and embrace.

Worthy is the Lamb
seated on the throne.
We crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious!
High and lifted up
Jesus, Son of God.
The darling of Heaven, crucified...
Worthy is the Lamb.

When you're in hectic mode. Try finding God.. or else you'll spend more time doing useless things.

Life is a choice.. whether it's a problem of study. a problem in work. a problem in relationship.... some decision you can postpone.. but others need to be considered fast.

2011-04-01T11:20:00.004+08:00

Dont really understand what's the lecturer is saying. and bored
Friends are all reading Online comics...
I'm not sleepy either, so yeah..

I love my Cheese Smallgroup :D
even if there are lots to do.. spending time with them is rejuvenating..
we learned the bible.. we strenghten each others.. we share...
mm.. sometimes I can be quite annoyed by some of them.. but most of them are pretty fine..

We discussed bout this BloodCharacteristic things yesterday since Olivia seems really like it alot talking bout it. LOL

I'm B.. quite right :)

Golongan darah B
Golongan darah ini punya sifat kreatif. Anak B juga cenderung penasaran dan memiliki minat terhadap banyak hal. Hal ini diimbangi dengan kemampuannya melakukan beberapa pekerjaan sekaligus. Suka mencoba-coba ini dan itu, sebelum menentukan apa yang benar-benar disukainya.(actually.. don't really understand what she really likes.. and that sucks.)

Anak B tidak takut terhadap segala macam aturan. Ia easy going, dan sangat menikmati hidup. Meski kadang tindakannya mengejutkan banyak orang, B tetap santai dan tidak terpengaruh oleh pendapat orang lain. Jika merasa ditekan, ia akan “menggigit” balik. (don't mess with Bs). Kalau merasa diremehkan, ia akan membuktikan bahwa ia bisa mendapat perhatian.

Saran pola asuh: Terhadap anak B, orangtua sebaiknya memberi penjelasan terlebih dahulu sebelum memintanya melakukan apapun. Biarkan anak mencoba minatnya yang luas, sambil diarahkan sedikit-sedikit ke arah bakat yang sebenarnya. Tak perlu panik jika akhirnya anak memilih berenang, berkuda, dan musik sekaligus. Memang begitulah karakter golongan darah B. Ia adalah si Multitasking.

Golongan darah O
Ciri khas golongan darah O adalah berapi-api. Tak heran, ia sering disebut pencipta gairah. Si golongan darah O juga cenderung melakukan sesuatu tanpa bertanya. Misalnya, Anda memintanya membeli cat tembok. Anak O tidak merasa perlu tahu mengapa orangtuanya perlu cat atau bagian rumah mana yang akan dicat.

Anak O juga memiliki sejuta alasan untuk sejuta keadaan. Itu sebabnya, mereka terkenal pandai menutupi segala sesuatu agar keadaan tetap terkontrol. Namun, kalau sudah tidak tahan, ia akan “kabur”, sulit diajak kompromi. Sifatnya yang sangat menonjol adalah murah hati. Mudah menghakimi, namun mudah juga memaafkan. Kadang keras kepala, kadang sangat fleksibel terhadap pendapat orang lain. Memiliki jiwa kepemimpinan yang tinggi dan senang risiko.

Golongan darah A
Tipe yang paling penurut. Takut terhadap risiko, tetapi sangat detail dalam mengerjakan sesuatu. Melanggar aturan, tidak ada dalam kamus si A. Dia juga mudah dipimpin dan diarahkan.

Anak A sangat terorganisasi dan berhati-hati. Karenanya ia bisa dipercaya mengerjakan pekerjaan yang menuntut ketelitian. Serius, kalem, dan berkepala dingin. Golongan darah A juga sangat tertutup. Ia tidak suka memiliki terlalu banyak sahabat. Sedikit sekali orang yang bisa dipercaya olehnya.

Golongan darah AB
Kaum yang satu ini sangat unik. Cara pikirnya cenderung tidak umum. Religius, sentimental. Semuanya dipikirkan dengan sangat dalam. Golongan darah AB adalah gabungan dari golongan darah A dan B. Itu sebabnya, anak bergolongan darah AB seperti berkepribadian ganda. Sedikit bersifat A dan sedikit bersifat B.

Anak AB suka berteman, tapi terkadang lebih suka menyendiri. Agak sulit menggambarkan karakter golongan darah AB. Kata yang tepat untuknya adalah sulit untuk dimengerti.

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Lots of assignment and quiz coming. My MidTermTest schedulle crashed with Graciella and Jordan's Final Exam.. And Gee's mark isn't that good either. :(
Don't really know what to do.

2011-03-29T00:02:00.005+08:00

An Urge to Watch

okai. ever since the rumor bout Hollywood's movies gonna be stopped playing in cinemas.. I never bother to check any upcoming films.. Not that I'm a fan of film myself, but I do enjoy watching once a while. . And it'll help exercising my english skill. Watching dvds? no uh.. many dvds here haven't been watch.. haha.. I'd prefer slothful-ing in front of my Ipad(which still hasn't been named).. playing.. or.. watching running man x_x

so..? yes. There's a good-look a like- film being played on cinemas..
Gnomeo and Juliet. sounds romantic and funny. Quirky titles.. looks so cute :)

and it's 3D.. my last 3D movie... wass... uhm.. Despicable Me.. LOL.. that was greaat :D
but it was years ago!

yes. so I'm looking forward for a movie. but when? probably tomorrow.. no EBS no Leaders SG.. no teaching :D
well.. I've been working on tasks.. but... yeah, me? never change.. eagerness at first.. sluggish just after. . haha..
oh well..

urgent things to do : College's tasks - I detest making paper.
M2M's event - concept still's so rough.. and we should have launch the publication next week and my mind wasn't really in it :'(
students are shortly facing their midterm tests week . kyaa. ahaha
gracia. what should i do?

not so urgent
Arena Doelinan - bazar TE : waiting budget
Facing Your Giants Camp - pending ding ding.

a picture of a happy family :)
just a random fave picts of mine

Seemed like I was a lil down last week.. But I know.. No matter what challenges I'm facing today. God's love will conquer my situation. Nothing in all eternity is able to separate me.. and you from His amazing, uncondtional, everlasting love. 'We are more than conquerors through Him who loved us!'
:)

2011-03-26T03:09:00.002+08:00

Tight Schedulle

So Many things to do so little time . . .

ckck.. really need some real time management.

Have to cut this and that. but what?

hmm.. today was real bad day.. felt bad.
*spion kaca pecah hancur lebur*

whew.
I do need bigger brain capacity.
and sometimes I'd like to be a boy, just for a while.. once a month?
haha..

oh well.. at least tomorrow's saturday.. :D
break a while.. finishing piling up tasks

still.. God's so good :)

2011-03-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

Just now. It suddenly came up to me.
MY ENGLISH SKILL IS DECREASING JUST TOO MUCH!

:( while I was teaching Vanessa yesterday I took a look at her book.
"A Diary of Whimpy Kid".. that's when I know, my writing skill sucks...
There I found number of vocabularies that sound good, but really.. I don't even ever heard of them. AND if it is written for little kids.. 6-12 y.o... then that surely mean i suck. :(

I haven't watched film in a long time. haven't really practice speaking, having conversation... let alone my writing skill.. At First I made this blog to improve my writing skill.. turned up that I really wasn't that determined.. as time goes by, it's just a place for me to gab.. sometimes even gibberish things. .

And surely I need to read.. what book? when?

Talking about my life. It's good.
2nd Semester life. 23 credit points. Going well..Just gotta make sure I got all the projects and assignment done..
wish for straight A's 8D
teaching 3 kids. going well..
Family time? less :( going Bad..
Friends time? hard to manage... well I can only go out on Saturdays.. and how can I go to 3 different places? fiuh.. I miss besties. Also hangin out with tacik2!
SmallGroup? GOING extremely well :D

Schedulle? Well I still can manage it well...
College life in the morning... Working time in the evening.. :D
just, there are times when things got hard..
but that's life right? And why should I worry? I know God's up there is taking care of me..
If he let me down, I know there's another scheme He's making...
:)

WORKING REPORT
hmm.. tiring. or.. bored? yes, easily get bored still is being my biggest issues..
but, hmm at least Vanessa's report was so great :D
straight A's
Gee's report.... :'(
hyuh.. idk idk idk.. aristocrater..
Jordan's was okay... :)

2011-02-17T01:23:00.003+08:00

Dereshishishi...

One Piece.. one great manga.. I'm 18.. and I'm back reading comics..
hahah.. there're quite good stuffs in it. like this one.. and there's other..

seeee... like i've been saying all the time...
keep smiling :)

oh I mean I want to laugh...
:D

Life is too short to be unhappy..
Dereshishishi...
*jd pengen ntn manga denger "dereshishishi"*

--btw,I don't know my class on next semester. How can I arrange my schedulle...wew--
gonna be cluttered. dereshishishishi

2011-02-16T00:27:00.004+08:00

15th of February

a neat writting...

Well, I had one worst valentine... I usually had fun ones.. :(
with bad thing going on and yes, admit it was my fault.
I felt real bad. dont know what to do. quite lost. misery
I asked God, no answer. and brain keeps tangling

So how did I spent it?

working. teaching vanessa.gracia.brandon... wasnt that fun too..
since I was.. so not in the mood. but well I survived..
OH writting this, I just remembered that vanessa promised to made me a valday present :D
and I PROMISED to make her one tooo...
beuh. what. ? hm..

Plus. still in memoriam of monroe.
Yes, one cute fun loveable little dog. 16 years it had been living on earth..
How can you easily forgot someone who u've been with after 14 years?
Surely sad. very..
Not that I wanted him not to go. I believe there's a better place for him.
Knowing he's such in an agony here, quite a relieved..
But still.. the feeling of being left.

and it was doubled yesterday. sadnes. guilty feeling. and a real bad mood.
worst valentine. Can't even spread the love.

ehm.. smile tough.. just because I still can.
If it not meant to be then it wont. If it is, it will...

haha.. just one cute story this valday
glad for silvi :D
not for me :(

a sad valentine.
And i miss my friends so damn much.

I miss lastyear valentine..

but, i'm fanny anyway

2011-02-14T23:28:00.003+08:00

worst valentine ever.

monro died. after 16 years. I once tought it would never die. till I grow old.
nothing last forever tough.

and troublesome valentine.

i am guilty. stupid.fool.coward. a maze..

i am very strong very very very very.

smile

2011-02-12T01:04:00.004+08:00

recent activities:

Bye Bye seX1.. (read SEXY)
heloo nOnyx2 (read NONIK2)

well, throughout some strange events, dad bought me an ONYX2
white one. pretty :)
OS 6 already, it currently aged 6 days...
well I survived autism world, I do my work well, I chat often though.. can't blame, I'm in a holiday :D

got it from twinsie tumblr.. and yes so right. friends.. one of the best things in life.. after God.. after family.. best things in life. :) those are love
I thank God for giving me friends surrounding me :)
helping me when i'm down, understanding me, and warn me if i do wrong

:D

2011-01-28T02:44:00.002+08:00

“Ketika Tuhan menciptakan wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi seorang yang istimewa. Tuhan memberikannya sepasang bahu yang cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia; namun cukup lembut untuk memberi kenyamanan ”

“Tuhan memberikannya kekuatan untuk melahirkan seorang anak ke dunia dan memberikan anak tersebut kasih sayang hingga nafas terakhirnya”

“Tuhan memberi kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan dan kelelahan tanpa pernah mengeluh ”

“Tuhan memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya”

“Tuhan memberinya kekuatan untuk mendukung suaminya dalam kegagalan dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi hatinya”

“Tuhan memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, TETAPI kadang menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu ”

“Dan akhirnya, Tuhan memberinya air mata untuk diteteskan, dan khusus miliknya untuk digunakan kapan pun ia butuhkan.”

“Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya atau sosok yang ia tampilkan”

“Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya, karena itulah pintu hatinya..."

"Tempat dimana cinta itu berada.”

Amsal 31:26 Ia membuka mulutnya dengan hikmat, pengajaran yang lemah lembut ada di lidahnya.^l 31:27 Ia mengawasi segala perbuatan rumah tangganya, makanan kemalasan tidak dimakannya. 31:28 Anak-anaknya bangun, dan menyebutnya berbahagia, pula suaminya memuji dia: 31:29 Banyak wanita telah berbuat baik, tetapi kau melebihi mereka semua.

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So today I've had this routine when my mom cried and told me bout her problem..
lost like I've always been.. yes.. I'm the kind of person who can't really tell what's on my mind, esp when it's about emotion.. so I just cried silently without really know why..
maybe it's just daughter's feeling.. not well when she saw her parents are sad

And above are Verses my sister and I read for my mom just now when she's deeply sad... A verse that really mirror my mom.. except for one line.. And I hope she'll make it true

My mom is one person that I really adore.. I believe all mother's are great..
but for me, my mom's the best.. She has to work everyday, yet taking care of the house, taking care of 3 girls and a husband.. doing so many things.. It's definitely very hard...
And of course there are time when she's down..

I really hope I can help her a lot.. And this is actually the first time I realised how mature my big sis has been. After all of this time, I haven't been treating her so well -myBad- I know she changed.. but not this big

God's really has worked in her :)
When there's nothing I can do but cry.. She stood up and really could give the counsoles needed.. seeing and hearing her doing that gave me the strength.. yes, by what she says, which was actually what's been on my mind and I never can't really say it... I was glad..
really... A God's work in her.. :)

Tonight I feel so.... *can't find the word*
I love GOD even more and more..

and still praying for all the things :D

2011-01-26T22:03:00.004+08:00

Nilainya sudah keluar ! ...
hmm.. take a look at my MathFinalTest.. cih. :[
bye2 GPA 4 :(
counting it.. and it goes 3,92
man.. now I regret for not studying.. and skipping the last classes.. oh well..

and things keep on running in my head..

2011-01-24T16:09:00.002+08:00

TOKYO
PETITES GAUFRES
yum!

gulung.gulung.guling

2011-01-24T15:08:00.005+08:00

gulung.gulung.guling.

yawn, I'm sleepy, it's 15.05 and the weather's so blue.. windy and dark..
nothing to do.. and so I just flickering through old highschool photos... and I miss them.. I've lost contact to some of them, well yeah, It's me myself stranded in Ubaya.. uhm, not that I prefer Petra.. or UC.. I like here in Ubaya. New environment new people. But yes, I'm the kind of person that can't really grow a deep friendship with new people.. nyah, so getting out of my comfort zone, getting away from friends whom i've been so comfort being with.. not that great.
but well, I love my life.. just don't really the enjoy the long way journey to ubaya. approx 50mins from home.. nyah.. times2 to go home.. and imagine when I should go back at crowded time. traffic jams all the way.. no fun. other than that. fun.. tastic... hahah felinda seems to be having the same problem stranded in HangTuah.

gulung.gulung.gulung...
my blanket smells so nice, yawn.. can't really sleep though.

ah. for fun follow @poconggg.. his tweet's so funny
and for more fun.... go to http://www.wonderfulgeneration.net/2010/06/victoria-and-nichkhun-we-got-married-ep.html

beenLooping this song for times..
FlightFacilities-Crave You
Mike Posner - Please Don't Go
Ricky Martin - The best thing about me is you
Bruno Mars Album : Doo-Wops & Hooligans

all great :D

haha.. look at me if you can find me

2011-01-19T13:02:00.003+08:00

iRespectFemales:

We may be meant for each other...but that doesn't mean we have to be together NOW.

haha. His tweets are great. but let me add.
if it's meant to be then it will be, if it's not, then it wont :)
somehow God has His own way

enough cucumber :D

future husband, please pleased my mom first before u pleased me :p
nyah or else I'll end up being a SitiNurbaya. hahah

2011-01-18T16:26:00.002+08:00

there're things that are hard to say. i'm stupid silly coward.

2011-01-17T00:43:00.005+08:00

yea. maybe I was just trying to keep my mind busy so that it won't wanders around.
and i'm good at killing my feeling. hurts a while, but i guess i'll recover..
i'm fanny anyway.

2011-01-16T23:07:00.003+08:00

Officially finished my final exam :D
Happy..
so.. now what do I do? wellll... not actually being an idleness girl.
still got things to do everyday..

I've got students to teach.. Graciella and Jordan... and lil Vanessa :D
yeah, not so much a vacation. But, I enjoy doing these things..
I'm the kind of girl who can't stand doing nothing for period of times.
yes, I get bored easily. SO, I really need things to do.

and, there's LSTA and ILPC events to be arranged.. waw.
that's quite a job.
at least.. I can breathe a fresh air uncontaminated by alpro

Bye2 1st semester! Hope I'll get great score :D

oh yeah. great news, I won the alpro-game maker competition...
yes, after 2 sleepless stressing night, guess.. it's worth it.

My life has been great.. But.. really miss my friends. hanging out with them :(

that's one dilemma. I want to go out once a while, but still I can't just neglect my job :(
and yes.. still things are running arround in my head.

Just glad I have friends like them

trying to mention it one by one

felinda. elaeliz. astro. fenny. evelyn. rebela. jikim .

smallgroup members :D
cha2. oliv. melo. risky. grace

and silvi yuwono :D

and otherssssss...

thanks God. I'm so blessed. great family, great friends. great life

2011-01-03T01:39:00.003+08:00

it's 2011!

So? How did u guys spent your new year's eve?
I was just relaxing and had a great reunion time with big family :D at Malang... watching the fireworks and chanting.. gossiping. sharing :)
It was quite nice since the weather was so nice-cool and fresh- and all my big bros all are so fun to be with =D
well.. some of them were so inspirational.. not just smart, gentle, funny, hardworking, and good looking! man.. perfect hahah.. if he hadn't been my cousin i would have fallen for him! :p
(and of course being with them once again lighten up my previous desire of having a big bro :( )
And I ate A LOT! soto lombok,nasi bok, angsle ronde, sate kelinci, rujak, bakso bakar, ayam sri, depot 21, ugh.. It was yum but.. you know how afraid am I of weight gaining :(
gotta start on another diet.

Okay, back to 2011.. New Year! It should be a new me!!
What's my resolution?
1. Finishing the bible
2. acquire a min of 10million in the end of the year
3. GPA 3.8
4. weights 47! -
5. Fixing Gracia's mark
6. Maintaining Vanessa's mark :D
7. Taking another Mandarin Course
8. Developing CHEESE! preparing leaders regeneration :D

hope it will all be fullfilled :D Happy New Year all :D

2010-12-31T01:32:00.003+08:00

Well.. my last days of 2010 was quite affected by Elise-Angelina Jolie.
Such an elegant woman.. Her style, her moves, her looks, her clothes,sexiness.. just WOW

I wonder.. If I could ever grow up be like her someday? *ngarep*

Yeah, so just like everyone of us in the last day of 2010.. You guys should be wondering right.. contemplating.. How was your 2010?

Mine? hmm great enough I guess.. another blessed year...
I love my life. lil bumps here and there but it was worth living.

2010... met lots of people, inspiring ones.. charming ones.. cool ones.. kind ones.. fool ones...annoying ones...

2010 Senior High School Ending.. lots of memories back then.. good and bad :)
knowing who my truly friends are.. learning how to handle another situation

2010.. my fresh university-girl life began... met more and more people, strive the rushing hours, my first time teaching... my first time part time job :D
my first time meeting Vanessa and Graciella :)

2010.. love cry happiness sadness excitement...

2010.. One Fun Year I'll never forgot

Thanking God for this great years.. thanking God for friends He had put surrounds me.. Thanking God for giving me lessons making me more mature.
Jesus's the best! :D

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Rolling the calendar, 2011 it should be...
What's my goal on 2011?

well.. there's a saying
No Expectation.. no dissapointment...
LOL
but there's another one
Mimpi.. adalah Kunci...

which one you'll go for?

Me? both.
well.. Guess.. I'm too young to feel this old.. LOL

let's cheers for the end of 2010

2010-12-28T02:34:00.002+08:00

Things that hurts -my version:

- Not being trusted by people you trust
- People you love being mad at you
- watching people you love fighting
- Knowing that you hurt somone's feeling
- Finding your friend... aren't really your friend at all
- Didn't get a great result for something you work really hard for
-Knowing you aren't capable of something

2010-12-28T02:18:00.003+08:00

This Christmas..
None of my wishlists was fullfilled anyway.. I'm so tempted to list all my wishlist down this post, but believe me... It's gonna be sooo loong!
Though my most wanted wishlist is to celebrate this christmas abroad :(
I don't know why, but everytime I celebrate christmas in Indo, I just can't feel the FUN.

Well, this year I managed to found lil joy sharing things with others..
Yeah, so I had a sleepover night over Cha2's house along with fellows cheese member :D
uh huh.. lots of picts lots of chitchatting lots of games.. happy, and in the morning we helped auntie sharing foods for the stranded kids out there on the road.. but that was before christmas.. it was a joy seeing kid's faces getting their christmas presents...

And yesterday there's GW's farewell party which can also be considered as a christmas party, It was a blast!! :D
So much fun.. we girls really know how to have fun..
Grace Wirawan.. an inspiring charming beautiful young lady..
She's cheerfull cute and all the best.. so glad I've ever knew her..
Believe that one day she'll be one profesional photographer! :D

and........
Lots of things are stirring in my minds right now..

2010-12-25T02:09:00.001+08:00

2010-12-12T22:08:00.004+08:00

It's December.. and I've just back from an early holiday :D
well.. this December.. I'll have double holiday :D
How's my study then?? hahah..
PRAY FOR ME!

so.. The Cruisin was great.
Royal Caribbean International- The Legend Of The Sea..
sounds cool eh? yeah.. a cruise ship.. a slight similarity to TITANIC

Ship Highlights

	Rock-climbing wall
	Glass-walled dining rooms
	Casino Royale^SM
	Themed bars and lounges
	Indoor/outdoor pool in a Solarium with a sliding roof
	Stunning Centrum, an open atrium featuring shopping and more
	9-hole miniature golf course
	Outdoor pool
	4 whirlpools
	Adventure Ocean® youth facilities
	Day Spa and Fitness Center

LOL.. what I love about this ship is the FOOD! 24Hours of food. You'll never run out of them.. and those food were YUM!

here up on MarinaBaysSandsHotel roof. highest place in SGP :D
more picts were already posted in FB

2010-12-11T00:40:00.001+08:00

back from the ship.

world feels like unstable..

2010-12-01T00:11:00.001+08:00

2010-11-29T22:50:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for 5th of Dec...

Yes.. I can't wait for cruise... I can't wait for a long break... I know it really is iresponsible.... neglecting my study for a full week.. but hyuh.. at least Vanessa and Gracia will have finished their final exam by then...
Not to grumble.. but there are days that really is tiring. not only body.. but mind..
hyuh.. well.. Gracia is another headache..

but yeah, I'm trying to enjoy my days.. hard days.. make me go stronger.. and tougher :D
I'm tough.. :D

doing things in great pressure, but outcomes should be good...

and I'm happy for my NTS-NilaiTengahSemester.. ALPRO (Algorithm and Programming) 100! yuhuu! Wonder how can I get such a perfect mark while my first quiz was actually 89? hahah.. well guess Jimmy put the bonus point in the end :D

yeah.. even if the days are hard.. There are still lots of things to be gratefull..
I'm gratefull for the healthiness i've got.. I'm gratefull i still can share some blood for others.. i'm gratefull i've got more money :) I'm gratefull for the upcoming sinfull holiday...I'm gratefull for being me.. and I gues..
I'm happy it's a fullhouse here in my family. Yes my older sis is back in d city.. and I know.. all this time we haven't really had a good relationship.. and I planned to fix it.
haha..
but hard it is! just on the 2nd day .. we've already had a tough argument. -.-'
well she changed.. growed... but still is annoying.. hyuh
but we're both more mature now.. and yea.. what can i do if she hate me?

2010-11-17T23:41:00.005+08:00

Going cruisin this December...

yes this early december.. me and my whole family will go for a cruise from Singapore.. Goin on an early holiday will be a bit creepy since I'll skip about a week and that means 7 classes... all will be skipped.. hyuh.. I don't really know how am I suppose to feel. I'm happy.. I'm excited.. but yet I'm afraid... That suppose to be the last week before my final exam started.. January the 3rd is my final exam.. plus.. on the end of December still we'll have another trip to Bali.. and yet right now I have no idea about array things. I'm stuck. and well.. trying to comprehend algorithm while so much running in my head is absolutely useless... :(

so yeah.. I should study harder...

and after tonight's Nigh of Worship.. less thing should be in my head.. to GOD be the glory!!!

anyway.. This new student I'm teaching.. Gracia Anderson.. a lil aristocrater.. gotta work hard on her.. well.. this is the joy of teaching right?

What recent things about me? well.. here is my life. college.church.part time teacher. KSM.. the portion is now a mess.. I do think I need to spend more time with family. :(

well.. still I'm happy with my life. :)
God's the best... He plans everything just right. even if sometimes it's beyond our imagination.. but in the end, it always make sense :D

I'm tired but I'm happy :D
I don't think I need more time any more.. I don't think I need to skip things.. I just need to enjoy everything the fullest :)

... and a boy's been here on my mind for a while. hm.

2010-11-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

haha. neglected again...

Yeah. So.. first thing first.. a story from October..
A special day.. Felinda Gunawan's born day. yeah.. She's a bestfriend of mine. A FutureDentist who'll produce lots of cute crafts throughout her journey!

25th of September was it. and what's bad about it is that I was in the middle of midterm test. :(
but glad I still can make everything well :D

so, the preparation was only 4days..
luckily, I've been learning to make Hand Made Itty Bitty Teethy-that's how v2 called it- during my free time on Monday and Friday(thxtoMari)

cute eh? even if it's a lil roughe here and there... I'm planning to make another for others :D

Here's a carricatur. It was our Cynthia's idea to give the bday a girl a picts of us. :) and look. it's nice right? How we make it? should remains secret! ;p

And.. here's my faveee... CUTE CUPCAKES. designed especially for our FutureDentist!
Love it so damn much!

Guess it's a lil bit late if I posted it right now..
but once again happy Bday dear friend :)
Thanks for being a great friend for all of us..
You know we'll support you always.. Succes we pray for your life!
Many happy returns in your birthday and may you have many more.
Friends are meant to be forever!

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and that's for the 25th of Sept.
26th of Sept is another story...

The Bday of a great friend... a girl who's been an inspiration and a friend who've helped me mature and grow more in God. A great SG leader. MissCha2.. not much pictures since daddy brougt my SLR to Dubai. but yea, Cheese made a surprise party which I believe she's waited for! LOL!
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Next thing nexts. Dad's just back from Dubai and I've just back from the PESTA KSM IF.
Fun fun fun.... tired to the max. and with the upcoming students number. I'll really need to manage my time better!

and. last thing last. this weekend. I'll be in JKT.. attending my dearest cousin's wedding party! Finally.. so happy for her. hey. she hired ax1oo!! woot. :D
next 2 weekend. I'll be in madura with some deutch's student.. hope it'll be fun!

conclussion: I don't know when will I'll be able to rehearse for NOW... :( God.

2010-10-23T02:04:00.002+08:00

UGLY

yeah. that girl in the mirror. so much ugly. swollen eyes rully face.

I rarely protest against my parents. to be exact my mom. whatever she says I'll just do or accept... but that really doesn't mean I always agree. All of these times. I've been able to manage all of those piled up emotions burried. But when I burst out. All won't slow down. And I hate it.

It hurts so much.

GOd :(

2010-10-18T00:55:00.006+08:00

It's raining hard outside

and i've just found it... might be.. I'm just afraid to be hurt.
I've always chose the safest way. try to run. but.. I admit. I look like a fool for now.
restless.feel so dumb. afraid. pessimistic.

and.I might as well hurt others feelings too..
ok i'm a fool
Love's fool.

2010-10-08T19:51:00.005+08:00

A week before MidTermTest

My last post was on 18thSept. hmm.. quite a longtime.. and today's topic is about,well anything... so how have I been? busy. yes. last 2 weeks was insane... lots of things to do.. I helped organize a friend bday party.. being an mc was quite fun tough.. but what really got me was missing the surprise party for Alice and walk along with Evelyn while she was in town:( sad story (I hate that kind of situation)...Last week was also the due date to submit my church's annual program.. well,I'm glad to serve God. But I won't lie, sometimes it was hard. but in the end.. :) smiley face all the way. Last week tasks was also piled up.. cruelly never let me sleep for more than 5 hours-and now coffee's my new best frend! haha.. but you see here. I survived.. :D

Here's a pict of MelO bday.. My first MCing along with Cha2!:D it went well

As you've read before on the title.. there's just a week left before my midterm test.. SO FAST! I think, just like everyone have known time flies... feels i've just finished my MOB.. :'( and don't really think i'm ready.. ALPRO (Algorithm and Programming) is one of my biggest monster. I've never managed to make my logic think right. One thing I learned in IT: computer is an idiotic things.

maybe all this time lots of people think they're smart. but believe me.. once you try to teach them. You'll get frustated. Vanessa is much more smarter than those computers! haha..

Talking about Vanessa..She's just so adorable. I really am wonder. Was I just like her when I was 6? haha.. once she told me about this handsome boy in her class and how she wanted him to be her bf! man! 6 y.o! haha.. And she also ever asked me who's the best 'jodoh' -never knew how can she knew such a word- for her.. between 3boys in her class.. LOL She even got jealous when I tell her about lil Koryn.. suspecting I love Koryn more than her.. but, well I love to toyed her.. Everytime I told her how cute is Koryn, somehow she got more dilligent, trying to catch my attention! Sly! hahah.. always took the best sticker I have.. and told me to give the ugly ones to vanessa. really is sly... haha... but still is cute..
AND! She often tells me to date her older brother!! dier.. man.. Calvin is a year younger than me fyi! And everytime I tell her that fact, she counterattack me.. telling me age doesn't matter, it's heigt that matter.. *OKAI I'm SHORT* but.. hyuh.. speechless... girls these days... OH. And she watches GLEE!! hahah...

hmm.. I also found out my fellow senior in ITDD... while there're 3 of us in ITDD'10
ITDD'09 consist only 2 students! LOL.. a boy and a girl. hahah.. Carlos and Casey they look cute together :D

2010-09-18T02:24:00.002+08:00

OKE.. Aku tau ini tengah malam. dan saya tidak berbahasa inggris. dan tidak baik marah2 jam segini. tapi ini urgent. semua sudah tidur. tak bisa ngomel2.

AKU BENCI KECOAK.. NOTOK TOK TOK!

ga tau manfaatnya apa. emang.. dinalar g ada manfaatnya.. tp ternyata di google ada juga manfaatnya! tp sungguan.. g bisa tidak benci..!

why?

Well.. so many bad experiences involving that revolting creature!
JUST NOW.
gosok gigi mau tidur.. eh kecoak! makluk itu! OKE saya toleran.. up to u mau ngapain.
EH! TERBANG! ugh!! ugh!!
Sapa ga lari?! sudah lari.. eh terbangnya cepet! ugh! DAN!!
BISA PUP! ****
DISGUSTING.. yuck yuck yuck STINK!! d tangan! ugh! untung g di rambut or muka or anywhere!

sudah dicuci pake herbal rose brapa kali ini! wangi sampone bukan maen padahal tetep ae bauk! :'(

gilak buenci notok tok tok..

2010-09-16T16:50:00.006+08:00

The Story from Singapore...

What story? well not much actually.. hahah.. we just had fun.
There I met my old greatfriends.. Evelyn and Gisella...
we had fun for a day.. exploring Singapore on foot! tiring? well not for me.. I enjoy taking a walk.. sensing the crowded area, discovering new places.. :)
They showed me the new mall in city. ION.. a great place. I wish we stayed at Orchard.. or elsewhere near the MRT station :(
I tried the bubble tea they claimed to be the best in town.. KOI.. and whew.. queued for an hour! yes it was yummy! and bibimbap.. yam..

didn't buy lots of things though.. just a couple of shirts.. shoes.. why? haha.. the burden from D550! I didn't dare to spend more money..

actually.. I really never asked for this things..it's just my dad. I don't know whether it's himself who loves photography.. or he wants me to like photography.. or he sense his daughter like photography.. but, he really like to please me.. well..
yes can't hide it. I'm happy to get one. haha.. but even if he didn't buy me, I'll never ask for one.. anyway, you see.. he's the bestest dad in d world :D

hmm.. I went to Universal on my firstday at SGP.. but not much fun.. we've gone round the area for about 4 times.. well.. some of the entertainment was still closed.. :(
But we had fun hunting for universal's icon! woody,po, marilyn monroe, madagascar crew, etc! hahah.. I wanted Elvis :'(

Look at his bigggg tummy!

Notice I wore a long sleeve shirt. It was hot!!
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Ecclesiastes 3:1-4
To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven: 2 A time to be born, And a time to die; A time to plant, And a time to pluck what is planted; 3 A time to kill, And a time to heal; A time to break down, And a time to build up; 4 A time to weep, And a time to laugh; A time to mourn, And a time to dance;

So.. don't rush the river! Don't be obsessed by time. We have all the time in the world to do what God want us to do.. He had plan remember?

2010-09-12T22:44:00.003+08:00

Welcome To The Family : EOS 550D

Lot's to tell... but!
one of the best story from Singapore..

Daddy bought me a DSLR :D..
kind of a burden tough.. looking at the price 0.O.. but of course the burden can't never beat the excitement and happiness!! yuhu.. let's pick a name for you!

2010-09-04T20:24:00.003+08:00

-SMILES-

Today, give a stranger one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine he sees all day. ~Quoted in P.S. I Love You,

A smile is an inexpensive way to change your looks. ~Charles Gordy

yes.. smile, I think it's one free gifts u can share to everyone. Maybe you guys don't recognize it.. but see.. when someone smile at you.. you get a lil bit happier right? and when u're in such a place where you're a stranger... a smile from anyone could always warm you...

Once.. when passing the traffic light near the 'PatungKuda HrMoh' was still my route to school everyday.. I remembered this person who entertains in public for donation -aka.pengamen-
he had that simple old little guitar in his hand.. well, he didn't really play it.. but people kept lowering their car's window and gave him money. wth!
but then.. i saw it.. he had that happy face.. always.. everyday.. every time.. he smiled to all the drivers.. even if they didn't bother to give him any money.. the smile won't fade.. and that's an earnest smile i could tell..

So.. u see.. a smile.. might help the overly stressed people facing their busy day.. (that's why I think they gave him money.. and note that these people who lowered their windows are driving fabulous cars! mercedes.bmw.alphard...-at least that's what I saw.. )

and..by smilling u could gain money. and u've got nothing to loose :)
I know u won't need the money but, a smile might give peace to others... brightens their day.. so why grump?

Wear a smile - one size fits all!
:)

just keep one thing in mind.. give ur smile to everyone.. but give ur love to only one♥♥♥
~GiordanoT-Shirt
:D
♥♥♥

2010-08-25T23:12:00.003+08:00

BACK! fully Rejuvenated.

Reading my last post.. feels so not me! :D
yes yes.. it was so tiring but no more grumbling!!

So since I push out a lil bit yesterday.. todays schedulle seems a lil bit friendly :D
I didn't have to teach so i've already home by 16.30..finishing my assignment with an empty stomach.. waiting for mom cooks... And yes! She cooked deliciously.. I even got time for working out while watching CSI.. also got a good time hottub bathing.. REJUVENATED!!
:D

Yes nothing beats goodfood.greatworkout.nicebath. AND PRECIOUS FAMILY TIME ♥

yes God Loves Me. Yes He DOES!
Just yesterday when I feel all down.. the song 'Jangan Lelah' was played on the radio.. hahah.. feels like it was dedicated for me..

So no more grumbling :D
God will never give me problem greater than my strength

and a big smile is now back on my face :)

psst.. and i'm quite happy to get 610 for my toefl.. eventough i sure know that it's not a valid toefl test. hahah.. but, guess that's a gift :)

now what's remain to be fullfilled is a good sleep :D

no more grumbling :D

2010-08-24T00:45:00.003+08:00

NEGLECTED FOR SO LONG and MORE BRUISES

poor bloggy. yeah.. I admited it.. maybe, just maybe I've been to busy lately. tired? ok yes.. after denying it for quite a time. I was tired. really was.. and mom didn't help a lot by scolding me.. telling me to stop doing these things.. I wanted to. but I just can't go off, walks away just like that.. it's my responsibility. She got mad knowing me not being home from 7am to 8pm.. she got mad for me doing lil mistake.. well I was miserable, tired and still lots of things to do.. tried hard hiding it from everyone.. fiuh.. At a time.. I felt like crying.. Raced against the clock for almost everyday..
I had my lecture everyday, still have to attend my Chinese course-twice a week.. teaching Vanessa-three times a week.. there's still my obligation for church that will need my time for at least twice a week.. and the tasks! and lastly.. I need to spare a time for friends... a happy time.. still that's TIME. a precious thing for me nowadays...
I wished there could be more hours in a day..

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Being so tired, no wonder bruises all over my body.. There's a big-scary one on my right arm..and 3 more on legs.. And seing those bruises.. mom and dad goes chirping :(
*I collect pictures of my bruises tough.. haha.. might it be needed someday for my health issue? LOL*
It shouldn't be something big.. they were just emphasizing it! I know lots of people who bruised when they're tired.. so yes. I was tired so I bruised.. I just need my rest.. after that I'll be all okay :D

But then.. Starting next week.. I guess.. it'll be a lot easier.. :D hopefully
The past 3 weeks was really hard. yes yes yes. got problem on dividing time between study,friends,church,teaching, and FAMILY...
however.. God still give me strength... He helps me served Him the best :)

so .. FIGHTING for ME!

anyway.. I don't enjoy ComputerScience